Well, it's the 11th May and I've been on my own for 2 years now. Thank goodness we didn't have Covid 19 back then with no families being able to visit people in hospital and hardly anyone allowed at funerals. I feel so sad for the people who've had a loss in the family at the moment - a 'proper' goodbye and funeral is one of the things needed to help with the grief I reckon.
The loss of someone you've spent nearly 40 years with isn't easy that's for sure. It leaves a Bloody Great Hole.
But mostly I'm OK, there's really no choice.
The family, the grandchildren, the garden, books to read and my friendly blog readers have helped me through.
Thank you.
Back Tomorrow
Sue
PS Thank you Debbie I now have your address - that's all four parcels now ready to go.
That 2 years has gone by so quickly, Sue. Thank you for your blog, I am so inspired by your fortitude, strength and practical approach.
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Grief is hard at all times but at the moment it must be doubly hard. Thinking of you and sending hugs. xx
ReplyDeleteI think it's only natural with what some of us have gone through to allow our minds to wander to the what ifs of the current times. It must be unbearable not to hug people and have that proper goodbye we need. Thinking of you.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you especially today, Sue. I completely agree with Sooze. Col would be so proud of you. Thank you for the wisdom, grace and honesty in your writing, which I know has been a help to so many. May the good memories continue to be a source of strength, and may you feel surrounded by love, joy and peace today, knowing you have many friends who truly care xx God bless you always
ReplyDeleteSending you the biggest hugz Sue. It does leave an awful hole, doesn't it. Like you, I am very thankful that Covid wasn't around then and really feel for those who are losing loved ones at this time. Mxx
ReplyDeleteThinking of you Sue, on what must be a difficult day.
ReplyDeleteI am another one impressed by your courage and ability to get on with life.
(((HUGS)))
Sending you a massive hug! My mum is now in the same position, just one month on and she says the same thing. There is no choice but to keep going xxx
ReplyDeleteCol is probably getting ready for haymaking wherever he is
ReplyDeleteTime seems to go both fast and slow in equal quantities - I too am inspired at how you have managed to keep going and blog too - as there can be no greater loss than your life long partner. Will be thinking of you today and in the next year ahead - blog hugs. xx
ReplyDeleteAnniversaries can be hard but they pass. You seem to be coping really well; I guess there are hard times you don't let on about. Thinking of you today.
ReplyDeleteWhen my husband died and I was sad I use to set a nice tray with the best China and have a good book and a cup of tea, most times it worked, thinking of you Sue.Hazel c ukπππ
ReplyDeleteThinking of you Sue. I'm sure there are times when losing Col overwhelms you but I'm sure he would be proud of how you've carried on with your life. Take care. xx
ReplyDeleteThinking of you, Sue. 25 years for me and I still think about him, miss him and talk to him sometimes. Lots of good things in my life since - travel, family, friends - but it is hard not having someone special to share them with.
ReplyDeleteWarmest wishes to you. I hope you are able to think of the better happy times as your day progresses and it brings a smile to your face. Anniversaries have seemed so much harder in these recent weeks with the distancing and no actual (hug) for comfort allowed. Sending virtual (hug) x
ReplyDeleteI cant believe that 2 years have past.I often mention you to my Mam who is still so very sad after the death of my Dad over 5 years ago.Love and Hugs to you and the Family,xxx
ReplyDeleteThinking of you today x
ReplyDeleteYou need plenty of hugs today, so I'm sending mine ((( ))). I knew it was around this time and that is why I thought you hadn't posted a few days ago.
ReplyDeleteIt was my MIL's funeral last week and there were only ten people allowed which was enough, as she was 93 and most of her family and friends had already passed on. I didn't go.
I think your practical nature has helped those of us who also had a similar loss. Welcoming grief into one's life is not easy I know but the act of living through each day, measuring it out in tasks help.
ReplyDeleteThe time has passed so quickly and yet for you it must seem an absolute age since you were last with Col. You are so upbeat and looking for the good in life, that it is an absolute pleasure to call by and read your posts each day. That you have had the spirit and the ability to be this way is amazing.
ReplyDeleteSending much love today. xx
He would be proud of you Sue. Hugs
ReplyDeleteI have also been on my own for two years on the 16th. Married for 53 years. Very lonely but I keep busy some days better than others.
ReplyDeleteI hope it makes you feel better knowing that Col has not been forgotten by we, your blog readers. He put up a heroic fight. You are a positive, resilient woman, Sue. (((Hugs)))
ReplyDeleteI've been reading along for years Sue. I've always loved reading about your life, and was so sad when you lost Col. In the time since you always inspire me how you just get on with it, and write so positively. I am glad you have been able to still find enjoyment and joy in your days.
ReplyDeleteSending lots of hugs to you today.x Lynne
ReplyDeleteThinking of you.
ReplyDeleteJust thinking of you today.
ReplyDeleteThe blogging family are very helpful in times of need. We share our knowledge and experiences as we go. It must be a sad time for you but I'm glad you e kept going on here. X
ReplyDeleteThinking of you today.
ReplyDeleteSending a big hug or elbow bump your way.
ReplyDeleteI'm thinking of you, it must be so hard missing Col. especially with the quarentine and lock downs.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you and sending love. X
ReplyDeleteYou are one lovely person as was Col. Hang on in there xx
ReplyDeleteI still have his wood as my profile pic on FB. A gentle reminder of my lovely brother. Hugs to go with all those from your kind blog friends Sue. What an amazing support network to have x
ReplyDeleteMy heart is with you today. He would be proud of you.
ReplyDeleteYes my husband died 6 months ago now-I keep thinking how grateful I am we were able to have a normal funeral for him and were able to see him in hospital. Like you say you keep going because you have to. Sending love to you today.
ReplyDeleteHugs (virtual of course) from southern Australia
ReplyDeleteIt seems like just a few months ago you blogged about losing your wonderful husband. ((Hugs)) from Canada.
ReplyDeleteGod bless.
thinking about you. you are right, death at this time is hard. x
ReplyDeleteBest wishes. I'm kind of glad my mum died in November and wasn't around for this.
ReplyDeleteThinking about you, Sue and sending a big hug x
ReplyDeleteThinking of you. Hugs. -Celie
ReplyDeleteYou really should be proud of your accomplishments of these past two years...time marches on but some memories never get further away from us. x
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