Some weeks are good, I get through without thinking too much about the great big hole in my life, other weeks are not so good, everything is hard work and the future just looks lonely and never ending. The beginning of the week just gone was like that, I don't know why because I went swimming as usual, did my stint at the charity shop as usual, read a lot, planned some blog posts, watched TV as usual, started a new jigsaw, got out for a short walk, shopped, did some housework ...... but then by Friday I was OK again so there is no rhyme nor reason to sadness hitting for a few days.
The only plan is to grit teeth and just get on with life and with car boots starting and spring somewhere around the corner perhaps all of next week will seem better.
I'll be there most weeks now, But not at 7am! walking round, searching for interesting things...... unless it rains, snows or something else happens to put me off....or until I get fed up with seeing the same old stuff!
Better think about what I'm looking out for and what's NOT needed this year.......must make a list, always a list!
The Six Nations Rugby, which I enjoy watching on TV and is a signal of spring arriving has started too and I have got through the worst month of the year all on my own. It was a test this winter to see how I would manage up the end of a lane - would I feel the need to move into a village? (or heaven help me, a town!) but No, it's OK. I don't mind coming home in the dark to an empty house - although Polly is always pleased to see me and I've kept warm, coping with lugging wood about etc etc.
Of course there's still the chance of getting snowed in but I have food enough and plenty of split wood for the fire. Earlier this winter I bought a re-chargable lantern to go with my wind-up radio in case of electric going off and I always have a stock of candles. Touch wood it's been OK so far this winter. I also keep some bottled water in the freezer because there have been lots of burst pipes locally.
Think I have it all covered 😊
Many thanks for comments this week and the ones I found late which I've now replied to and hello to new followers, hope you enjoy reading.
Have a good weekend